I don't do resolutions. But I am going to say goodbye and good riddance to some painful experiences and baggage from 2011.
I am going to say goodbye to the anger and resentment I feel for my soon-to-be ex-husband. I have to let go to move one. There were some good moments in our relationship. And I will try to remember those times.
I am going to say good bye to the special friend with whom I spent three wonderful months learning to love again and feeling attractive again. While the timing was not right for the two of us, I don't regret the special moments we had together. Unfortunately, he was not as far along on his path to recovery as I. And learning to set boundaries, I could not continue to wait for him to be emotionally available. As sad as I am to say good bye, it's the best path for both of us. I will treasure the special moments of hiking, running, and cooking together.
I will usher in 2012 with hope and curiosity as to what the year will bring. I will continue to grow and learn and live. And while I could say, I resolve to lose 5 lbs, to run a half-marathon, to be a better person, shouldn't we be setting goals throughout the year? In 2012, I will take one day at a time, one step at a time, to heal, to grow, and be a stronger person.